they are hooooooooooooooooooot!

Benji madden!!he's a rock star!!and i love him!

joel madden!!love love love!!!!

lucas till!!cute face!!!love it!!

paul digiovanni !!!heh he's hooooooot!!

martin johnson!! hot!!

i love a guy from a band!!haha a kinda rock star guy!!!hehe

but lucas till is hot!!!
even know he have that cute baby face thingy but love it!!!

holiday movie marathon !!

hola!!!heh..been watching a lot movie this last 5 day!!and my favorite movie is superhero movie!!!funny stupid and fun movie to watch!!and i love good luck chuck!!!
maybe the next 3 day i will watch....?idk!!and bye...

miss me???

well i do miss my blog!!!hahah!!bussy week!!not as hell
as i thought!! but yeah!!
like you all know sunday was
"lebaran" day!!so for that i say sorry for everything!
ahah!!and yep i've been doing a lot of thing like going out,shopping,eating,celebrating,laughing, and
many2 more!!!if you want to know
just check out my twitter page !!
haha(ga penting)and yep more update to come so do wait!!bye...

he's not one of those stupid teenage band or singer that sing stupid love song like an idiot!or song that does'nt mean anything!he sing meaning full song and song that he write about life,love and his self!with deep lyric like chilhood,will you be there and earth song!its not about breakup or what ever!its just better and best song than any of those song that on the market now!!like new comer!!argh!!! !!!and that's why i love him!!its never too late to love something you know!!!

the sims 2!!!!!!!!

in love in love in love!!!muach!!!!!!!!

3 most inspire people for me

michael jackson,greatest entertainer,king of pop,great dancer

amazing personality and many more word to discribe him!he's just

AMAZING!

oprah winfrey,need say more?

she is an amazine show host,generous person and her work

charity is amazing!!how could you hate her?

she alson one of the richest celebrity!

coco chanel i love her!big fashion icon!she's just

great!her fashion sense is great!

and chanel is a big label in fashion too you know?

Michael jackson

why he's so inspire me?cause he love music and he can get enough of it!

he's a childish person cause he he lost his chilhood,and i love that fact about him

he love kids,he blessed with his life and he's a great musician,dancer and many more

the most thing i love about him is that HE'S a nice person!he full with forgiveness!and i really2 like that and i try to be that!

(more information about michael jackson click here)

Oprah winfrey

she a great host!and when i grow up i want to be a host!so learn from her!all of her interview is great!and one of my favorite interview is when she interview michael jackson (hehe). and i never miss an episode of oprah winfrey since 2008!i love to watch it!she done a lot charity!and she make a school in africa for girl only,wich i think its really cool of her to make it!cause she black american people(?). she help people a lot!she have a show called oprah big give!its a really cool show you know?and....she just AMAZING!

(more information about oprah click here)

Coco chanel

i dont know much about her,but i think she amzing cause she make one of the bigest fashio label in the world and one of the expensive one!haha one clasic chanel bag can cost you about 2000 dolar!HA!her style is great!i just think cause i love fashion so much that why a lot fashion desainer is inspire me!and my favorite is coco chanel!

(more information about coco chanel click here)

dad....

dear dad.....
i love you,but i dont think you love me as much as i do...
i care about about you,but why you never give me attention?
i care about the whole thing that happen to you and our family but i never want to show it to you..
i dont want to show it cause i'm afraid,how could a girl like think about so many stuff like that?
will you ever understand all the sing i give to you?the sing that i need your love,i need you smile and hear you lough!its been long since the last time you hug me!its been long since the last time you said i love you to me.and its been long since you smiled at me!
dad.....
why?
why?you've been hiding all your pain inside that big body of yours
why dont you share it with me?
remember when we use to be so close?
do you remember that?its all gone since fadhlan born right?
do you mad at me cause i hate him so much?
dont blame it to me,i cant hold it!
i wonder do you ever fell proud of me?
cause i never fell or see on your face that you're proud of me!
i wonder do you still love me or not?
cause i dont fell your love at all!all you give me is distention and magazine
will you be there for me when i need you?
i think you are but i dont know why you did that!its biological thingy
why are you ignorance?
i know you tired from work and blablabla!!!!but at least you give us a time to family again!
not just a 5 people in a house and 4 of them get along and you just sitting there thinking or having ugly face !
dad....
be relax and forget about everything for just a day or a hour?
please.....
(bye i write this when i hate my dad more than i hate my shit)

friends

here's some of my friend biography

FIRA
she's a tomboy i think,she smart at math and all the counting stuff.she love band called click5 and she falling in love with the band vocalist named kyle patrick.and love a guy with a emo hair or band boy(wtf?sud gw anak band)and she's nice!!!long time ago me and her love to see s** video but not now kita udah tobat!!!her taste for music is same like me.she's a photo genic!all her photo is cool!!!she have a alter ego named RAFI.and maybe that's it?

ICA
she's also a tomboy!she a smart girl(tp nyontek)she's a liar!she lie a lot!she can get anything she want by lying!she can make a cool story by lying and she a poser for alex evans and zoe kimbal
the one topic she talk to when we're chating with her is EMO!and she use to be high school musical fan and ashley tisdale fan!but now she's not she change into emo lover and lesbian HA!dia males beribadah!kalo di suruh solat pasti alasanya males!ato ga MENS!she a funny girl!she dont have that much friend she have more friend with bule or the person she chat to in her blackberry! dia ga bisa lepas dr blacberry ato internet!maybe that's it?

PAMELA
she my new best buddy!she a nice girl!her voice is big!she's a big girl!but i like her a lot!she smart at math!but not good at english!she have a lot of friend!she nice to hang with!she not a boring person she can make me laugh in 5 munite!!she nice to share a story with!she a on and of realtionship with ame!she's a silly willy girl!she a ga nyatai person!and maybe that's it?

NABILA
my old friend from elementry school!i miss her a lot!she's my bestfriend and she a nice,smart,funny girl

RIDA
two word for her funny and silly!ans she also nice and smart!

NISA
a japanies girl!she love anime and she love drawing!funny and a lot like me

VANYA
she the person i want to talk to when i have a boy problem!she funny nice and very smart!

INDIRA
she a silly girl,sometime she get a lil crazy like an idiot but i like it!
i have more friend but to lazy to type!bye... :)

things to do at holiday...

hola!!!holiday is coming!!!!that's mean no mudik or going anywhere for me cause y parent busy at work and no one drive to any place!so i want to make it fun for my self!by felling un boring relax my self and do thing i always want to!here some of the stuff or project i want to do
for my room
-make a board full of ispiration and cool photo haha(mading)
-clean my room!(if i really in the mood)
-coret2 tembok gw biar rada gmn gt!
for my magazine
-di susun yg rapih!
-buat rak pake apa kek
-cari tempat yg baru buat my beloved magazine
-clean it,di sambungin lagi
for my self
-loooong shower time
-luluran pake milk soap!
-buat tato liburan
-ngasih cat kuku di kuku gw.collor=black baby!
for the reast of the day
-watch tv or movie
-read all of my magazine and di rangku tulis di blog(if im in the mood)
-telfon mella berjam2 or ica
-browsing cool site
-bangun sian
-tidur malem
-play the sim2 of course!
-play with my lil bro
-read my mom novel
and many2 more! so blog you latter in 2 weeks of holiday!
ps my lil bro nanny will go to her kampung for the whole week so i think that week gonna be a hell week for me HA!

4 top michael jackson music at my childhood

enjoy!i love 4 of that music i remember when i was a kid i have a walkman full of michael jackson song, out 20 song i only 4 of it so i listen to it all the time ahhaha and i repeat it again and again!ahah so there you go!

long week and gonna be long holiday

(me going "lebay" at the beach)

hello there people!so sorry that i'm not blogging for almost a week!

hehe gw rada sibuk gimana gt!
ok2 enough of stupid chit-chat
so...i 've celebrate my lil bro birthday at sunday he's turning 4 this year and at tuesday to Thursday I've been going "pesantren kilat" so here's the story
pesantren kilat
hari selasa gw dan seluruh smp hi pergi ke anyer untuk ikut sanlat yuhuuuuu
di sana tempatnya bagus dll dan seru sgt!!!haha is like sleep over with 23 girls haha
rida,alya,pamela,muti,caty dll kocak n seru abis di kamar!bagian y paling seru selama sanlat adalah pas kita semua ke pantai dan foto2 di sana ahaha main2 di pingir pantai ber ombak2 ria
dan buka puasa bersama gw sgt mera kebersamaan!!ahaha
dan renungan malam!!!argh!!!gw takut setengah mampus nontonin video2 aneh!!sakaratul maut dll!!!gw nangis kyak orgil di situ!! there's a lil bit drama goin here and thre while i'm in sanlat but i really dont want to care or think about it! em i really not in mood for writing anything so bye talk or blog you soon!
ps my home town is here in jakarta so i'm not going to mudik haha

in love with this peromance

thank you mom

i write this thing for my mom
the reason why i write this thing cause right at this moment
i fell so thankful for her and i also fell sensitive about every single thing
so here's it goes

dear mom...
i made this for you
i hope you like it
for me you're everything for me
you're the number one person that know me more than anyone
you're the first person i want to see when i cry or fell down
you're the first person i want to talk to when i learn something new
i never want to see you cry
i never want to make you cry
i dont want to see you sad
and i love you mom
..........mom........
thank you for giving birth of me
thank you for carrying me for 9 month
thank you for holding your pain when you giving birth of me
thank you for changing my dirty diaper without fell ell
thank you for not mad me when i wake up in the middle of a night
thank you for making me smile when i cry
thank you for teaching me how to walk
thank you for teach me so many things
thank you for cooking me healthy food
thank you for always try to give me what i want
thank you for loving me with pure love from you
thank you for always giving me a warm hug from you a hug that means everything for me
thank you for giving me a soft word when i fell down
thank you for cheering me up
thank you for give me direction when i lost
thank you for love me and thank you for everthing you did to me
all those thing i cant name one by one
and for that i want to say
i love you so much i will always do and i'm sorry for everything i did wrong to you
i love you mom
---------"""""--------

favorite tv show ever!

the biggest loser, i love that show so much!!!its fun to watch all those fat people kicking their ass of to lose a weight!and their drama and all that stuff it just fun to watch,i just love reality show so much!and the biggest loser its about 14 fat contestant going to a ranch where they gonna spent for a while until an elimination.at the ranch the must work out hard with their trainer to lose a weight!and they have a red and blue team.the team is really important to them cause..idk!haha you just have to watch it!.for me i love the session 2 where man vs woman!and i love seeing their trainers!they are hot!!!haha especially bob!haha!!!!!!!!he's a positive guy a kinda guy that i will love to date someday!(kidding) and julian she's a hot bad ass!a type of woman i will love to be my sister!if you want to watch the show make sure to tune in on halmark at 1pm or 5.30 pm(if you live in jakarta)

(the hot trainers)

peter pan!

i now know why michael jackson love peter so much!why he namend his ranch "never land"
cause i think he dont have a childhood memory like us he keep working and working and there's no playing!i remember one of his word from interview and he say that"when i was in a studio and i look outside there is park cross the street and i see all the kids playing,right at that time i was crying cause i want to go out playing but i cant" and "i rather climbing a tree or playing video game than have to go outside and get chasing by paparazzi" argh!i see one of his video he acting like a kid,joking,laughing around like a kid!and i just say wow! such a great2 person!hehe for those maybe think that he's kinda weird huh?but i think he is !!!haha btw here's a childhood lyric!read it and you try to love it hehe

Michael Jackson

Childhood lyrics

Have you seen my childhood?
I'm searching for that world that I come from
'Cause I've been looking around
In the lost and found of my heart...
No one understands me
They view it as such strange eccentricities...
'Cause I keep kidding around
Like a child, but pardon me...

People say I'm not okay
'Cause I love such elementary things...
It's been my fate to compensate, for the childhood
I've never known...

Have you seen my childhood?
I'm searching for that wonder in my youth
Like pirates and adventurous dreams,
Or conquest and kings on the throne

Before you judge me, try hard to love me,
Look within your heart then ask,
Have you seen my childhood?

People say I'm strange that way
'Cause I love such elementary things
It's been my fate to compensate for the childhood, I've never known...

Have you seen my childhood?
I'm searching for that wonder in my youth
Like fantastical stories to share
The dreams I would dare, watch me fly...

Before you judge me, try hard to love me
The painful youth I've had

Have you seen my childhood...